We survived our first holiday without Brian. All of us. On Wednesday we had Thanksgiving at Ashley’s. It was good to have all of the cousins together, and Adrianne and Chris, Ashley, Kim, Grandpa Branch, Bill and Janet. Ethne went out with everyone to get Ashley’s Christmas tree and Elliot and I ran errands and […]

The Blur

I am sitting here this morning feeling like I need to document these days for myself because I am in such a fog of grief that I can’t remember what happened yesterday, let alone last week. The first week after Brian died was a blur with all that had to be done. Funerals are tough […]

Newly Minted…

No matter what time I finally get to sleep at night, I find that I can’t sleep past five o’clock in the morning. That’s not a bad thing because Ethne is awake longer than I am at night and she sleeps in. So all the things I plan on doing when she goes to bed […]

November 5th

I wanted to ask that everyone who reads these updates would please keep Brian’s dear mother, Kim, close in your hearts today. She won’t like this because she is even more private than Brian, but today is her birthday. Since early September she has endured a great many trials. She lost her own mother, our […]

Lord, here comes the flood…

Today, Sunday November 4th, 2018 at 12:30pm, Brian passed from this world. He was surrounded by his family. I had offered a family prayer and shortly after, his respirations became agonal and I could no longer palpate a pulse so I placed my stethoscope on his chest and I listened until his heart beat for […]

What a week…

Brian rested well last night. He is very quiet these days, but in true Brian fashion, he is still striving to make everyone around him comfortable. Its been a huge and sudden adjustment for all of us because I don’t think anyone will disagree with me when I say, usually, Brian is the smartest person […]

Quick Tuesday update…

We have lots of family here. Brian’s dad and grandma arrived Sunday late and spent the day with him yesterday. He has good moments and bad moments. There are blocks of time where I feel like he is moving further and further away from us, but then later on he comes almost all the way […]