November 5th

I wanted to ask that everyone who reads these updates would please keep Brian’s dear mother, Kim, close in your hearts today. She won’t like this because she is even more private than Brian, but today is her birthday. Since early September she has endured a great many trials. She lost her own mother, our […]

Lord, here comes the flood…

Today, Sunday November 4th, 2018 at 12:30pm, Brian passed from this world. He was surrounded by his family. I had offered a family prayer and shortly after, his respirations became agonal and I could no longer palpate a pulse so I placed my stethoscope on his chest and I listened until his heart beat for […]

What a week…

Brian rested well last night. He is very quiet these days, but in true Brian fashion, he is still striving to make everyone around him comfortable. Its been a huge and sudden adjustment for all of us because I don’t think anyone will disagree with me when I say, usually, Brian is the smartest person […]

Quick Tuesday update…

We have lots of family here. Brian’s dad and grandma arrived Sunday late and spent the day with him yesterday. He has good moments and bad moments. There are blocks of time where I feel like he is moving further and further away from us, but then later on he comes almost all the way […]

Quick Wednesday Update

Brian first. We got home from the hospital on Sunday and Brian hasn’t quite bounced back yet. At first I thought it was completely emotional. He’s been very quiet and withdrawn. He’s depressed, right? Who wouldn’t be. His mom was with him on Monday while I went to my biopsy and she just said he […]

What is going on? No, really…

So, if you know me, you know I am a high-functioning anxiety sufferer. I can be freaking out in my head and cool as a cucumber on the outside. Its my modus operandi. Needless to say, this year, since May in particular, my anxiety has been THROUGH THE ROOF. As I am prone to catastrophizing, […]